Dear Simbha...

Dear Simbha...

I hope you have safely reached heaven. Hope you have met Strippy and if you have already,tell him that he is loved and remembered back here. I hope both of you are having a great time together exploring your new home.I hope there are a lot many dirty ponds that are oxygen & worm rich and friends there who don't compete.

As you know I was eagerly awaiting for you all these days so your death came as a blow to me. Its sad that the destiny as always has been cruel to me, to take the little-cute-fishy-you away from me just as soon as we met. Yes, I am hurt and humiliated that you left me even when I cared and loved you so much. Just when I felt that you were reciprocating my feelings....Just when I started believing that I can actually love you as much as I did Strippy....Just when I was foolishly making you part of my life...part of my future.....YOU LEFT..... Your death came as a shock to me but I am angry with myself. I feel guilty too.

Did I overfeed you? Did I not change the water regulary? Did I not put the antifungal medicine? Did I not speak to you day in and night out to make you feel at home? Did I not make sure that the water was not too cold or too warm but just what you needed? Did I not low my TV volume so that you would be comfortable? Did I not plan to take you both to some pond nearby the next day to leave you in your natural habitat so that you could be ' happy and living' ? Did I not follow all the instructions I was given?

Okay! I am really sorry that I forgot to tell you a bye that day when I left in a hurry. But trust me you where in my thoughts all the time. And then when I came back home.......that evil afternoon what I see is that Simona is almost dieing and you were just doing great though you had that scar on your head...The same scar that Strippy had before it died. I was actually scared for you too but was more worried for Simona. I know you loved her too and were worried for her.

You know what Simbha? I had a terrible time that night. Yes,I was away from you the whole night....but I was too scared to come and have a look at Simona. I really din't want to see any of you dieing. I now wonder how it must have been for you. Were you in pain? What is it that killed you? Were you too worried for Simona? Was it really that I over fed you? Or was that scar a tumor? I will never know...but I am sorry if I have not taken enough care of you. But believe me you were the most beautiful gold fish ever with a shaded tail of white and gold...with the most amazing pouty fishy lips that I do never forget. Remember you will always be loved.

RIP,

Mourning Archana.

P.S. The pic above is of Simbha & Simona. The idea is not mine though...I just found a pic in google that was similar to the above and I just did the same with Simbh'a pic.

Ready Set Go!

A vacation longer than needed only makes me feel useless. The last few months have been so tiring and boring and confusing. Have written almost all sorts of entrance exams available.....I just did not end up confusing people around me but myself. And did I mention I worked for a week ? It was okay kind of a job.....but not the one for me.

And then the endless holidays began. It was not long before I realized that it was easy to make plans and much easier not to follow them. So the things-to-do in my Must-do-list were transferred to things-to-be-forgotten-list without a second thought. And I just chose to follow the same old routine of doing nothing and posing to be busy. But anything done for a period longer then intended makes me feel sick of myself. And the boredom made me buy a guitar a month ago and yes I am still learinng. My Bioinformatics classes are gonna start this week. So I hope I will soon have an exit from the boredom which already killed a part of my spirit.

Novels,Newsletters & Tweets!

Gosh !

The biggest task of writing a post lies in finding the right word to begin it. I wonder if its only me who faces this. Anyways...go ahead read,comment, or just add on your thoughts or much better criticize;~)

Its 11.40 pm now and am not sleepy as always. Since a week I am really finding it hard to put myself to sleep.....Nope its not insomnia...Its Anna Karenina..... I haven't yet finished it but I am so so so so in love with Leo Tolstoy and the book. Its truly unbelievable that a novel could be soooo touching..so Complete and so magical. Magical I say because with each word the author tends to get a hold on all your senses...everything around you is just completely transformed. Complete because there seems to be no place,no person,no situation or no thing less or more described. There is always one character at least in every novel that you identify yourself or somebody you know with but in Anna karenina..each character is so special..so well defined and so true. Be it Levin, Alexy, Vronsky, varenka, Katrina, Karenina or Stiva ...I find myself in common with each one of them be it for the circumstances they undergo or their attitudes and reactions....I truly admire Tolstoy for portraying these characters in a way that you will like them for all their goodness and shortcomings. And this just makes it easy for me to respect and like (myself) and everyone around me.

I guess few people have a charm that truly empowers them to cast a spell with their simple and strong words (spoken or written) that convey tons of emotions. Having said this..I need to mention Editor Bob [ http://nl.123greetings.com/blog ] and Karen Alloy [ http://twitter.com/KarenAlloy ], who top the list of 'make me feel good writers'.

Editor Bob- the guy of 123greetings.com, a misadventurist who writes for his blog and weekly newsletters. I wonder what his real name must be....but what ever I just admire him for his weekly newsletters that make my week complete and my inbox full. I knew I always liked him but a day ago going through my inbox, I was simply amazed to see that I haven't deleted any of his newsletter given the fact that I delete every mail that is read unless it is from him or Sru or something very important. Editor Bob, your newsletters truly rock my inbox..err heart! And coming to Karen Alloy. She is the one who makes the most cutest and funniest Videos on YouTube and twitters the best natural and ek-dum original tweets. Alloy the mother of three kids with a spirit so catchy no wonder has a large fan following including me.

Be it a novel of hundreds of pages or a short newsletter or the new age tweets ........its all in the immaculate expression of the 'words from the heart' that make it marvelous.

Love to Karen, Bob, Tolstoy and you.

Archana.