Dear Simbha...

Dear Simbha...

I hope you have safely reached heaven. Hope you have met Strippy and if you have already,tell him that he is loved and remembered back here. I hope both of you are having a great time together exploring your new home.I hope there are a lot many dirty ponds that are oxygen & worm rich and friends there who don't compete.

As you know I was eagerly awaiting for you all these days so your death came as a blow to me. Its sad that the destiny as always has been cruel to me, to take the little-cute-fishy-you away from me just as soon as we met. Yes, I am hurt and humiliated that you left me even when I cared and loved you so much. Just when I felt that you were reciprocating my feelings....Just when I started believing that I can actually love you as much as I did Strippy....Just when I was foolishly making you part of my life...part of my future.....YOU LEFT..... Your death came as a shock to me but I am angry with myself. I feel guilty too.

Did I overfeed you? Did I not change the water regulary? Did I not put the antifungal medicine? Did I not speak to you day in and night out to make you feel at home? Did I not make sure that the water was not too cold or too warm but just what you needed? Did I not low my TV volume so that you would be comfortable? Did I not plan to take you both to some pond nearby the next day to leave you in your natural habitat so that you could be ' happy and living' ? Did I not follow all the instructions I was given?

Okay! I am really sorry that I forgot to tell you a bye that day when I left in a hurry. But trust me you where in my thoughts all the time. And then when I came back home.......that evil afternoon what I see is that Simona is almost dieing and you were just doing great though you had that scar on your head...The same scar that Strippy had before it died. I was actually scared for you too but was more worried for Simona. I know you loved her too and were worried for her.

You know what Simbha? I had a terrible time that night. Yes,I was away from you the whole night....but I was too scared to come and have a look at Simona. I really din't want to see any of you dieing. I now wonder how it must have been for you. Were you in pain? What is it that killed you? Were you too worried for Simona? Was it really that I over fed you? Or was that scar a tumor? I will never know...but I am sorry if I have not taken enough care of you. But believe me you were the most beautiful gold fish ever with a shaded tail of white and gold...with the most amazing pouty fishy lips that I do never forget. Remember you will always be loved.

RIP,

Mourning Archana.

P.S. The pic above is of Simbha & Simona. The idea is not mine though...I just found a pic in google that was similar to the above and I just did the same with Simbh'a pic.