The Unfair Talk

It has been quite a time since I heard her speak or must I say complain about how her life sucks & how tangled up she is in the mess that she deliberately chose for herself.

I obviously chose to stay far-far away from her as long as I could, as I was in no mood to hear the same old rotten stuff I've been listening to for ages. It's always easy to suggest a solution to a problem for someone who hopes to find one, but of what help can you be to someone who believes they know all the solutions to all the problems of their lives and yet are so-so-so unhappy. Your presence or no presence could be a pain to them. And hence I chose the one thing that apparently seemed easy-to ignore her. To ignore as if she never existed.

And now that she found herself ruthlessly once again thrown back into that same old truly hated, well known place of loneliness, I knew she would come back to me to be consoled, to be told that she was not all wrong after all. And even if she didn’t I could not ignore her for long.

Though I despised her for her foolishness to blindly follow what her heart said, deep down I Knew that it was what that kept us connected. I was her everything when she was something/nothing to everyone. But her silence for the past few days and nights was utterly horrifying. I wondered if she chose this medium of silence to tell me things I had no courage to understand.

Feeling sorry for her, who failed to understand herself like every one of us, I felt compelled to make her speak out before her silence said all those ugly truths again and again.

'Understanding Pain is after all not such a good idea, especially when you know not how to soothe it.'

Read Quote "a" in Post Script.

ME: Hey..I was wondering how hard it must've been for you...that..

She: That [an expressionless face so unlike her]
ME: That he finally said goodbye.
She: I knew it was going to happen eventually.
ME: [I know you are stupid] Are you still upset?

She: Yes

ME: But why? After all it was something expected.

She: Lose a friend, lose the one you love the most, lose the one you placed all your faith in you will know then.

Me: What went wrong?

She: Destiny

ME: [hiding my giggles...blame game again] What went right?
She: Destiny
ME: [You stupidestest] Grin what is love?

She: I don't know.

ME: Love is a fallacy.
She: Maybe {long pause] not

ME: Why maybe? You are supposed to have a single opinion.

She: I don't.

ME: You make me feel so insufficient. You are SUPPOSED to have a definitive opinion about any damn thing in this darned world you stupid dumbo.

She: Do you? (With a twinkle in her eyes)

ME: let’s just talk about YOU loser.

She: don't they both mean the same?
Me & She: [Silent]

 Read Quote "b" in Post Script.

P.S

1) I am no SPLIT PERSONALITY .....
2) Writing something stupid and posting it being the opposite of anonymous is not easy.

3) Anybody the antonym for Anonymous? ( is it 'named'? )

Quotes:    a) Many attempts to communicate are nullified by saying too much- Robert Greeleaf.

                b) Silence is the virtue of fools-Francis Bacon.

                c) Lying is done with words and also with silence-Adrienne Rich.